Yours truly

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Jacqueline Benita Paul
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loves adventures

Title: Goodbye Kiss

Love was my air

Life was so fair

Till you said your life was about to end

TimE AND space i wish i could bend


You said you might not wake tomorrow

I begged you o let me follow

Then u hugged me tight and you kissed me right

Together we spent the night


My heart despaired when i say the morning light

For it was the end of last night

It was that one thing i truly missed

Was our last goodbye kiss

-Aidane-
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My RESOLUTIONS

♥TO BE PROM QUEEN
♥TO FINISH SCHOOL WITH HONORS AND SCHOLARSHIP
♥TO GAIN A UNIQUE SKILL
♥MAKE MY DOG FAMOUS
♥TO FALL IN LOVE
♥TO DISCOVER HIM
♥BE HAPPY


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Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Break up excuses....


Oh well things didnt turn out as i wanted them too... i guess distance does not make the heart fonder yet in my case it proved otherwise... i cant say im suprised but i can say that i am not going to date for a while... Made myself busy with so much things even my mother is more worried than ever... 

Heres my agenda

1)forensics competition

2)drama competition

3) Cheer-leading audition

4)Chess society 

5)Christian Society 

6)PBSM marching

7)Quarter Master duty 

8) Debate competition

9) Short story competition

10) Bible quiz

looks like very little but the effort im going to have to make to perfect all this is going to eat up all the time i have... and this is all happening like beginning of the year ONLY...


Part of the reason of my joining was to make my mum proud but mostly i want to make up for the times i didnt try to experience high school... and as for the Christian fellowship i think will bring me much closer to god and i want to learn much more actually...  

The last thing in mind is to be with anyone now and just do whats best for my future.. 

I know i am just not ready so i did HIM a favor.. :)

IM soOO excited to go for the dance workshop! woohoo!! :)

And when is mum planning to give me the article o.o

Well i got some homework that suprisingly i like to do to catch up with and please pray for my audition tomorrow for forensics :) *kiss* *kiss*


Sunday, December 27, 2009
CHC

my 100 things i am grateful for this year ( pastor from CHC told to list and i actually want to do it wow) 


1.Anger management 

2. Brought so much of opportunity

3.Met Kelvin,ong,sam,brian,chris,and the gang 

4. Exposed to the beatboxing world and met Joanne,cody,shawn,danial,megat,kimmy!!, and the whole gang :))

5. That i lived going into CBN (ci bai nation)

6. Read Sun tzu art of war,twilight and new moon 

7.Went to Australia on my OWN!! 

8. Discovered new places and people 

9.my room renovation 

10. my house renovation

11. danced waltz with a few guys *awww!!* 

12. Spent more time with joey

13. Watched the most beautiful stars

14.Swam with jellyfish and sharks 

15.lived everyday 

16. my teachers didnt kill me 

17. ignore bad teachers 

18. met good teachers 

....cant think of more.... next post!! 


Friday, December 25, 2009
IM BACK!




For someone who does a lot more thinking than others on a daily basis ... i never thought that returning home was going to be so liberating and peaceful.

i missed my family,friends and even my enemies

going to Australia on my own wasnt all bad neither was it all fun and games...
Flight was ok but headache... But the flight back was scary and i never want to fly for a VERY LONG TIME.. almost freaking crashed man...

Though i found my freedom yet i did not do as i wished all the time and found myself dealing with problems from another family that made mine look normal.

Yet at the same time i had the greatest experience of my life that i know will take a long time before i can feel that again.

School was definitely the last ever thing i would miss and i still dread the fact that i have to return.

The first two weeks in Australia was just me and Coles (Aussie market)

But i also went to Woolworths once in a while

There was a musical at Yasmins church (Julians Daughter) and i was so touched cause it was so beautiful and i saw camels,donkey and sheeps for the first time in a long time.

Yasmin has such a beautiful voice.. very much her own genre :)

On one pleasant Thursday, my mum's friend ,Julian took me and Mani (his gf) along with the kids that i didnt know was coming to his boat and to an island that rhymes with stroke back.

I then knew thats how the posh life must be like and i wanted it so badly. Though it was a shame i didnt get to ride the jet ski but then again theres always time for me :)

Later that day after running up sand dunes and swimming by the beach. Me,Gemma and Lewis (mani's kids) started camwhoring and did the shooting star dance (jumping jacks)
Julian and Mani were enjoying themselves on the boat while we camped out and danced LOL. I definitely had a blast. Though it was difficult for me to sleep due to time difference and the fact that i knew it would be a long time before i see such glorious stars.

p/s we almost ran all the way to the gold coast and swam with sharks and jelly fish (seriously)LOL



On the next monday
i went to Brisbane City with lots of style...

Firstly at 5am aussie time i went with my friend Sidney who is a bus driver to work so he could send me to the city later.I left my purse at Mani's LOL

so after several hours of going around Brisbane in a bus, i finally got to the city <3>

I saw some pretty interesting things while i was waiting for gemma and lewis to arrive.

Fashion here is old and modern and some very disturbing

but the sales people here are to be admired... comparison to Malaysian sales man

I had the best time in the city :)

Got my first jawbreaker
Went on a ferry passing beautiful buildings
Went on a fun trishaw ride in the city
Saw an artificial beach

Oh lauren(lewis gf) came after lewis and gemma arrived.. too bad she had work so she left early

Oh and on the day before i went to wet and wild with yasmin and the family. it was ok in my opinion :)

anyways pictures will be in my facebook so check it out bye!



Monday, November 30, 2009
Leaving to aussie tomorrow

Hey guys ... im alive lol just lots has been going on and well to make long stories short to just one here are some highlights of the month of november

1) Anysha b'day was ok
2)Didnt get to go to flyfm anniversary but went to Shawns party
3) Worked at Kl central and Capsquare selling original DVDs @ Krishna's
4) Made Rm220
5) Went to penang with May,Anysha, Jules and Aunty Uma
6) Got a business card from a Bartender in Bagan's @ Penang.. *increase of self esteem*
7) Dress more exotically than usual
8)Discovers that i just dont get along with my family
9) Is in a complicated relationship
10) Planning a damn good future

Anyways pictures will come soon ;)
Still resent CBN but got at least a few friends this time

Oh and i found out ALL teachers hate me for some reason LoL

<3>

Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Updating blog next week

BLOG UPDATES NEXT WEEK :D

Saturday, November 7, 2009
Shawns Party

Loi loi damn funny la the whole night hahaha


WOooo hooo!! yesterday was like super uper fun though it was unfortunate Jasper wasnt there :S

Joanne Joanne ... damn funny la 



Well anyways going there was hectic man cause we also wasnt sure where exactly was the place 

But it proved to be worth it la

Met some awesome guys 

Jules (like godfather name) so damn funny 

Cant remember much though hehe....

Kevin hot wehhh LOL

then then Ameen was like cool and stuff 

but noone was dancing man! 

Mangkuk hehe

I went with Joe which was totally awesome cause he was all brotherly ILY!! 

Then there was this guy trying to court me but i refuse cause song choices were insanely horrid 

AND

i didnt plan to dance with anyone alone

The More the better wad

But i did dance a little hehe

Shawn seemed to like wad me and joe bought/made for him which was a relief

Yay!

so anyways yeah it was fun la LOL 

Tom my ong ong b'day so i wish earlier a bit la hehe Happy Birthday!!

sorry ar i got grounded so cant see u :(



Short story (read it please and comment)

Genesis 2012

The fumes of destruction stuck into my nostrils and the city that was once my home vanished and became the Garden of Flames. 21st December 2012 marks the day of a new beginning, for me and the other 6 people who survived the war between Heaven and Hell. The irony of all this was that all 7 of us who survived shared only one thing in common, that God and the Devil didn’t want us. I wasn’t sure whether to be flattered or insanely insulted by that fact but what did matter right now was surviving. While walking across the streets of Ampang in Malaysia, I ran to the pharmacy to collect some medical appliances to contribute to the survivors meeting later. As much as it would satisfy my heart to sit down and cry about my misfortune of losing my mother, father, brother, sister and friends. The pharmacy was terribly flooded with the rocks that crashed in and the bloody dead bodies. All that did not bother me as much as when upon entry the light siren that bugs my mind when everything is quiet. Uncle Kor never looked so rested after his wife passed away last year. After tearfully gazing into his lifeless eyes and reminisce about the times I went in to pick up mums’ medication, Dameon called me via walkie-talkie to quickly attend the meeting. Without another thought in mind, I grabbed whatever I could and ran to the hall around the corner. Every 6 of them were there and curious about each others survival stories. The self appointed leader spoke about the expectance of Armageddon but not surviving after it. Even though I always had a gut feeling that I would never die. Each of them was told to talk about their encounter with God and the Devil and what was said to them. As usual I would volunteer first so my nervousness wouldn’t get the better of me though it wasn’t a talent show. “Hey guys” I blurted. “My name is Aidane Cleona, 20, female, Indian and I survived because my…my… brother… held the walls that would crash into me and… he sacrificed….” and I started to sob and was catching my breath. “he sacrificed himself to save me and then God appeared before his crusade with the devil and just gazed at me….after the Devil had arrived as well he just glared at me for a moment then started the war” I said after finally catching my breath. After being seated and continuously allow my emotions to flow through me and allowing all the pain cells to be numb to feel a brief moment of peace. After a few moments to myself I remembered the few memories I knew would serve a great importance to me one day. I remember Dad who never let me and my brother and sister forget that he was the one bringing the food on the table. Mum who cooked when she needed to rub it in everyone faces that she was indeed the best. However, Dad is always at work and mum always has her appointments with her many boyfriends which does not disturb us unless well when she… does not receive her money and at the same bad time that we need to make some large payment to the school. At first we thought it was okay to do so because she just wanted to educate us but then later we realized she started to find reasons to beat me up and apologize later.  Dad on the other hand is a quiet but honest fellow but also like mum is filled with pride and will not settle for anything less than others. He too often would look for reasons to be angry with me and my siblings but he wouldn’t do anything by violence like mum yet to us it’s sad that he never listens when we complain about her. My baby sister lost her mind after she reached puberty because mum always picked on her after I left for school and Dad would make her feel invisible. In the end right before the Genesis 2012, all there was left to care about was my brother and my friends. I remember when I was so upset to a certain point I would run out of the house and take a long jog and reach to Gabriel’s house where I always felt at home. Now I am back to consciousness and prepared to face my new sets of tribulation. A familiar wet but warm sensation occurred on my toe and I quickly turned my head down to find that my little cookie colored toy poodle, Eden (I came up with the name cause it rhymed) was licking my toe. My heart never felt more joy in seeing a familiar figure and Eden was a very good reason to start feeling that way. It did occur to me however that it was impossible for her to survive the whole thing and return to me because she was a puppy and she barely even recognizes her own name.  Yet after all that has even happen to me I shouldn’t be surprised I suppose. Without another second of doubt, I grabbed her and held her in my arms tearing once again to another miracle. Finally after all the drama, the second volunteer to share his surviving story stepped up and he seems rather promising I must say. Tall, cute, looks Australian but have some local features, well built, grey eyes, short brown hair, and dimple on his right cheek that can catch a pencil although he did look very untidy maybe it was just the after effect of the Armageddon I thought. Just looking at him made me look up and gave thumbs up to God. With his deep seductive voice he said “Hey… I’m Silver zhong sil wo from Perlis, 21, male, Chinese mix Australian…… I ran away from home and didn’t have any friends because I had trusting issues. “I slept through the whole thing and I only realized something was wrong after I woke up on the streets of Perlis listening to the radio I stole from another beggar”. The giggles from the back definitely initiated that no one else was going to take him seriously but his tears that rolled down his rosy cheeks and his eyes full of bottled up despair showed me that he was the real deal. He went down the stand and for a moment I could have sworn his eyes met mine. I lost interest in the life of the other survivors because my mind was set on Silver. All I could catch was that there was a 30 year old woman named Esther Cheah sook yi , a pair of twins named Dameon and Derrick aged 16 who are cute little Indian boys , a Malay couple Asya Binti Shamsuri and Aidil Asraff aged 27 and 33. Astoundingly the self elected leader was the youngest of the lot which was Dameon. Soon after the ice breaking ceremony was over and done with, we were given a certain amount of time (30 minutes) to cry about our loss and give a word of prayer. Incongruously, we all also shared another thing in common… we all still didn’t know who was right about the religion thing because all we all saw was a talking light and some nothing at all so praying together wasn’t in the agenda. Dameon then went around calming us all down including his brother. Abruptly, the walls of the hall started crashing down and we all ran out for our lives. With Eden in my right hand and rested on my chest while Silver held my left hand like I was familiar to him and ran out. After he realized we were all safe and it was over he quickly removed his hand. Naturally I was blushing but then a sharp sensation of pain was overwhelming my foot. I fell down rolling on the floor in pure agony while Eden barked restlessly like she was calling out for help. Fortunately, Asya who is a used to run a local clinic treated my metal struck foot. Limping from one place to another, I knew I was officially the groups’ burden. Dusk arrived so swiftly as we finally reached another inhabitant building that look well equip enough to last through the hours of darkness. Eden slept very close to the entrance door while I and the others made our bed by ward mattresses and paper as blankets. The wishful thought of getting any sleep after all that has happen was truly admirable. All of a sudden Eden became very big and furry and the small white patch on her head was glowing marvelously lighting up the whole room. She was big enough to be sat on by 10 people and her eyes visualized the galaxy. It was almost she was the guardian of heaven and hell at the same time. Yet when I tried talking to her, she did not respond. She lightly licked all of the survivors who were asleep even myself. The next thing I know I was in the air along with the other survivors who were still asleep. After long some of the survivors woke up and panicked while the others were still catching up in sleeping time. Obviously, Silver was one of them. Finally we landed on the most beautiful land and the air was the freshest thing I have ever inhaled in my life. Lush greeneries everywhere and teasingly beautiful animals gathered to welcome us. Eden shrunk back to normal and slept on the light green ground. “Hey check it out! There are 8 survivors!” Derrick shouted out loud after waking up. I turned and saw that the beautiful animals were like Eden. They were a sort of transporter that brought us all here. “They are all still asleep” whispered Silver who was having the intention of startling me since he just woke up. “Or maybe they are dead?” I said with a sarcastic tone. He responded with a charming grin. Esther went around looking for clues to their location while the happy Malay couple Asya and Aidil was trying to wake up the other survivors. Silver and Dameon were having an argument on who should be assigned my noble protector because I was the youngest female here. Though I am grateful to be known as the most youthful yet these 10 minutes of fame is trivial in comparison to what had happened. “Aidane!” I heard loudly from behind me. It was Esther who found that we had not travelled anywhere else but the others came here. “Apparently we are in the same country but radical changes had been made and other survivors were brought here for some unknown reason so kindly refrain yourself from panicking and stick together” Dameon announced. “You heard that? Stick together he says” Silver said cheekily. “Yeah you are right so you should find some glue in the woods. Run along now” I replied. He just laughed for a moment and left to continue his argument with Dameon.  Without the desire to get involved in childish matters, I went to Eden and brushed my hands through her silky fur and fell into deep slumber. “Hey guys check out this chick!” I heard vaguely when my dream ended. “Shes cute!” the same voice said. “I call dibs!” another voice said. “Well there isn’t any law if we….” the same voice said. Suddenly there was punching and screaming and when I opened my eyes one man was on the ground and Silver was holding a tree bark as though he wanted to beat the stupid out of that guy. Eden stood and bit the hand of the guy on the ground. A 3 digit number was engraved to the spot where he was bitten. “666”. It didn’t take a genius to know that this guy survived because the devil wanted someone to do His bidding. The guy immediately vanished after that. Silver scooped my up and took me to a tree. “Well Eve, what you think?” he said. “Well I think this palace should be called Genesis, like the Old Testament” I replied. “It has a nice ring to it” he said smiling. “So this makes me your Adam right?” he said randomly. “You could say that but if you haven’t noticed my choices aren’t limited” I said while my eyes were pointing at Dameon.

 Liam (one of the other survivor) told the story of his encounter with God and of his lifetime pride and joy which was his job as a historian during the bon fire. Aurora who is also another survivor from Scotland spoke about the Loch Ness monster that saved her and brought her to her fellow survivors. I somehow noticed an attraction between Aurora and Silver which bothered me a little because he was acting as a voluntary slave. This feeling was not going to get me anywhere thus I decided to let it go. The other survivors were too much in shock with all that had happened and kept their stories to themselves.

It has been months since the Armageddon and a community were finally built. Asya and Adill got married and Asya is with child. While Aurora and Derrick get surprisingly serious. Turns out that Silver and Aurora are just friends and Dameon found companionship with Esther though age became a factor at first. All was going well and we all just decided to stay in one place together. However Eden seemed to be restless and travels on full moonlights like she’s reporting to someone. Silver approached me cautiously because he knew that I was not in the mood to be in talking terms with him before. “Hey would you come with me?” he asked while grasping his beautiful hands together like he was a child. “Sure where to?” I said looking into his eyes. He grabbed my hand with his teasingly soft hands and walked towards the tree that he took me to before. We sat under the tree and gazed at the shadow of the tree while the wind blew so wonderfully. Suddenly dusk approached as he finally was going to say something. Eden flew down and grabbed the both of us when she was in her supernatural form. While we were on air once again, a voice was speaking to me in my head “Aidane Cleona daughter of Eve and Silver son of Adam, know that you are now with my favor and you must rule this land as your ancestors. Do not fall for the temptation and bring damnation to this land for it is sacred”. My mind was quiet and absorbed everything that was said. “Your friends who also share the same fate will be placed in other lands to spread peace across the land. You are not alone” the voice continued. Then Silver and I blacked out.

At the crack of dawn, Silver woke me up panicking about our missing friends and the voice from last night. I calmed him down and told him that our paths will cross one day. After a long deep breath he said “Aidane, I am glad you are the last girl in the world because I like you. If all this had not happened, I wouldn’t know what love would be like. So if it is your will, would you be my Eve?” I stood speechless. “Well, since we are both the last people around here and I like you as well why not” I said laughing. And that was when my life found its happy ending that no one I knew believed in. Silver and I had many beautiful children and told them of our old life so they may share this tale with their children. The world was back to normal but this time no one bit the Fruit of knowledge.